right, long time didn't blog.

so many things to say, yet don't know where to start.
hmm. okay.
"Near" is a character from death note.
yup, a character.
so near yet so far, this phrase very familiar right? (:

arh.
Where is the communication?

Hiding all my hopes and dreams away  ( :
7:26 AM;

i think some people need to go to this website.


click here.

recently have been doing bad in studies, in fact just don't feel like doing anything.
i know studies cannot blame 'mood' or what.. and we study to grow up to be rich, financially stable.
yet, i feel the more smarter and clever you are, the more scheming and evil you become.


i like my blog name, blow this love.
it is a completely different meaning from ' i need love ' .




do YOU need it more than i do?

i have , and i think i have found a purpose..
or maybe my sole strength of survival is those people living outside,
those with no arms, no legs, or those who suffer from poverty..

im so glad i have eyes to see the world. this makes me very satisfied .. very satisfied.


okay.. its okay that my family seems very strict
but at least i got a family and i love what i have.
LOVE, has many types..
or maybe love has only one true type.

and what comes before that is lust, hatred, like, puppy love, infatuation, etc.

im not seeking love now ..
why cant you just trust me? =(

Hiding all my hopes and dreams away  ( :
2:52 AM;

went to kbox with Madelyn, Shi Jun, Ernie and Hannah..

lol. took some photos, but I looked so pathetic.. >_< style="font-style: italic;">siao char bo la =(
the room so cold~!+

today chinese dance... made me feel like i've changed a lot.


going back.


present time.

looking back, i feel like im much more dumb than now.
*yawn*
maybe its through experience which made us the way we are, huh?
it ain't your fault, so don't cry.

sometimes people out there are just out there to get you even though it doesn't concern you at all..

you'd have to lead a happier life and the more they want you to fall, the more you have to get up on your feet.

i know sometimes its hard,

to stop tears from flowing.


but remember.. everytime you go through something,
you'd feel it is normal if you go through the same thing again.

lol.. and, actually, you don't have to envy me one [specifically to someone (: ]

i lead my life because God gave me a book titled "LIFE"
and I wrote the story myself.
its the choices that made me what I am today ~

some people.. they grow up saying
"hey, if you dont like me, or hate me, must tell me ok? and must tell me why.."

and upon when being told,

he/she would say
' i hate you, you are such a loser, ' and blah blah blah...

some people.. they carry a fake mask, not true to themselves..
telling lies.. saying , 'its okay.. nvm one' when they do mind..
acting like they don't know anything.. but actually they do..

are you guilty now? =) if you are, then its okay de.

cos this world
a lot of people.

and i have flaws too .

so .. hey~
it will be alright in the end.

Hiding all my hopes and dreams away  ( :
7:36 AM;

"For I have received of the Lord that which also I delivered unto you. That the Lord Jesus the same night in which he was betrayed took bread: And when he had given thanks, he brake it, and said, Take, eat: this is my body, which is broken for you: this do in remembrance of me" (1 Corinthians 11, 23-24).

and I thank god for this day, for I have eaten bread 3 times a row.
just bread for lunch and dinner! [skipped breakfast]



okay la. i think im weird, sometimes.
i mean, everyone loves chocolate right?
i don't know why.. but i sort of dislike chocolate, especially those very chocolaty one.
i prefer those is with chocolate with biscuit, or chocolate with hazelnuts, etc. crunchy chocolate .. maybe, =)

but vanilla still best for me. =/ told you its weird, i dont know why.
at least its special , XD no need to snatch away those chocolates from my mother or what.. hahaha.

ok.. enough about food le bah.

back to my bro's business,



yup its called ANGELSPREE.
and the stuff that he's selling..

even I myself want to buy it!arrrrgh.




sooo nice! and the price is very suitable too.. just that,
i think i really need to save $$ liao .

guitar lessons costs..will sure soak my money dry!! ROAR~

i should have expected it.
THANK YOU for appearing in my life,
and even though the ending was not as I wanted it to be,
I guess its the only way for me to finally
know how important friendship, and all those ship-sheep-ship is.

You're a black sheep, not a real ship,
and .. though it's some sad shit,
to look in another point of view..
without you, I'd never know real ship. =)

nnjy.

Hiding all my hopes and dreams away  ( :
7:58 AM;

*edited*
After 3 days of roasting from the sun and giving pleasure to MOSQUITOS,

the camp is finally over!


kinda missed it , but home is still the best place.. *grins*

had a lot of fun on the last day, and seen some stuff about my friends, realized how reality works, etc.

to see how tian tian, candy, joyce ng , yi kai , le qi, sara, ka shun, wen lin sleep is so FUNNY =X!

especially during kayaking, you can see who would help you when you fall, and who would let go and just let you die on your own or something.


special thanks to gamaliel ma for seething your fingers THROUGH my hand time and time again!!

and the dancing part was very fun, ok lar. it'd be better if can dance with girls - girls and boys - boys.. very awkward with girl and boy but its still fun! although dawei fierce like duno wad.. =/

lol. and as always i love xiuyi and joyce forever. besties and besties forever;- =)


dont have group 11 's pictures, sad.
at least have a lil' of the 3Fians pics =)


we can obviously see how much they love pui pui~! XD.

alright then. i really don't know where to start about camp, and don't know where to stop.

this is to a friend i love very much, someone whom i've known since from a very young age (:

no matter how difficult it is ~
or how hard it is ~
it's alright if you cannot pull through ~
just don't fall, don't slip, and don't fret.
and even if you do,
i would be right there for you~

so all you have to do is that just one small step.
conquer your mindset, and there's nothing
else you cannot do...

=) stay strong ~

alright. in camp.. i missed yvonne teo loads...
it felt weird, because we werent' very close last year
and this year i started to realize how important her presence was.



wheeee. =)

okay.. last but not least,
my irritating funny brother is gonna starta blog shopping spree shop.

it's not ready yet, but do support him~~! =)



look at his mouth, he's hungry for money =.='
look at my fringe, i cut nice straight - lines . $2 per haircut,
hurry. promotion for limited time only. =D

Hiding all my hopes and dreams away  ( :
12:57 AM;

both of you, why are you simpering away? =)

Hiding all my hopes and dreams away  ( :
7:57 AM;

welcome to the re-re-re-re-created blog.

blow this love? because of many recent events happening,
that i feel seriously this world needs more love now.

i have friends going,
" if i had one million dollars, i'd keep all of it to myself."

if you think its nothing wrong.. oh well.. its your choice =)

but i decided that IF i had one million, i'd
make this world a better place.
i don't know how, but i'd try.

maybe you'd think its weird.. but if you are one
of those people out there, skinned to bones through poverty,
if you are one of those people out there,
crying and begging for help ..
dying of hunger..

I know you'd need my one million more than I do.

therefore i crea8 this blog,
to reflect what i've done wrong..
and to preach about love, in which i failed in it badly,
even at home =)

now begins a new journey ~~ wheee. XD

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2:43 AM;